Wednesday, November 30, 2011

November’s gone

  1. Our chat saves me from dwelling on disappointment.
  2. Their old house is like an enchanted castle but then the lights reveal its colorful and cozy interior.
  3. I sneak under her bedcovers while she watches TV. 

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Tuesday’s 3

  1. I talk and talk and she listens and the sun keeps shining on us despite everything.

  2. There was no need to argument. To ask for help. I just did it. Nobody seemed to care. I care.

  3. I feel brain-washed.  In a good way.

Monday, November 28, 2011

Monday’s skies

  1. An amazing mackerel sky at dawn.  I can’t ever remember seeing a single cloud spread across the sky like that, in the form of a volcano eruption in grey and pink.

  2. I changed clothes and walked right out of the house, into the sun. It was a perfect walk to the library. And back, under the starry sky.

  3. There is something healing coming my way every time I experience my teenage daughter’s expressions of deepest sentiments, be it happiness, anger, sadness, pain. Or fear, like tonight. It’s in the knowing she can do it and I never could.

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Wednesday anticipation

  1. I feel assured about not experiencing unplesantries without prior notice. Which is good.

  2. I help Jay dress up for the dancing class. I feel her heart pound in anticipation.

  3. Em’s looking forward to going to the book fair.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Finally, Tuesday

  1. I feel my unease. Can't focus. Can't work. Then my coworker says something about scanning some competitor's prices and I can't be more grateful for the lucky chance to leave the office for a couple of hours.
  2. It's been ages since I sat down next to her to draw. To read, I will do that any time. But to draw, no. It seems too simple, won't shut the mind. But then I do just that. Draw ornaments, patterns, doodle. And I dive into peacefulness, even if just for an hour. We both do.
  3. I watch her parade in her new black boots. And I can see she is growing. Too fast.

Friday, October 28, 2011

Free-day it is!

  1. "Do you even see it is sunny outside?" And I see my friend is right to draw my attention away from life's unimportant small issues.
  2. "If you take time, you can find many interesting things." Jay is referring to the stones she found someplace, and I am thinking intangible things.
  3. "Do you have plans after Em's dancing class tomorrow ?" And I say yes because my day and my daughter's is planned out.

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Thursday's 3

  1. I wanted to pay just gas but then I pick a sandwitch to take along  which I haven't done in months, and the lady behind the counter checks my card and says it's free of charge because I have 5 stamps already.
  2. Jay brings her notebook home from daycare and she shows me all her beautiful drawings. She tells me she has joined the choir, for the very first time. Yep, she is a big girl now.
  3. There is a young man at the castle cafe, he's a cook actually with great skills in decorating food, who makes wonders out of pumpkins... There, what a sunflower!

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Dancing Wednesday

  1. Human nature never fails to amaze me. Which is good. Even when it's about power.
  2. The girls' dancing is like watching butterflies. So fragile and beautiful. Jay's first performance with the group.
  3. Buying tickets to a puppets' show.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Active Tuesday

  1. I have a to-do list. The lines in red really bug me because they have a deadline in October and they are just calling for immediate action. So action it is. Stopping by to schedule my car service.
  2. Last time Jay and I went for a walk in the woods we saw trash lying around and we promised to each other to pick the empty bottles and wrapping paper next time. Today I would have forgotten all about it if Jay hadn't reminded me to take the trash bag along.
  3. Crushed walnuts on our dining table.

Monday, October 24, 2011

Monday’s heights

  1. Jay tells me she got a star from her teacher for singing a song at daycare. She’s got happy eyes.
  2. It’s the first time I hear Em play piano accompaniment to flute.
  3. It’s late and I have a slight headache but my energy level is surprisingly high. My investment into a wristband is paying off already.

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Saturday morning in Ljubljana

Star Park, at 8 a.m.

Old Square, oh, where are thy people...

Shoemakers' Bridge, still asleep

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Thursday at home

  1. The good thing about having to stay at home is… being at home.
  2. A magazine with articles and posters of her favorite musicians waiting on the desk calms down her teenager temper.
  3. In the evening Jay's forehead, at the usual body temperature.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Wednesday's unexpected

  1. The printer broke down. No way can we print out any photos for Em's school project. Thanks goodness I didn't toss away that pile of old National Geographics. Good old paper vs. high tech.
  2. At some point I feel like I am going to walk out of the house and just keep walking. But the feeling goes away just as swiftly as it came.
  3. One vanilla pudding at 11 p.m. can do wonders.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

The Tuesday’s old and new

  1. I cut some flowers and make a bouquet. I use my late Grandma’s ceramic jug. I love this jug.
  2. Two old acquaintances stop by while I work in our vegetable garden and we have a good laugh together.
  3. Jay says there is a boy at daycare that gives her many hugs. “He says he likes me! Why can’t he just look at me?!” I guess realizing we can have something just by looking at it, comes with age.  

Monday, October 10, 2011

Monday cozy

  1. It is warm and cozy at our local library. And I find three new storybooks in English!
  2. The desks in the music classroom are really classy. I wish I had one at home.
  3. I sneak under my bedcover and indulge in the hike descriptions in the book.

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Comfortable Sunday

  1. The luxury of stretching in bed on a Sunday morning.
  2. I spot visitors in our driveway just at the time I make rooibos tea.
  3. We thought there weren’t going to be any after seeing people walk under those chestnut trees. But it’s a great harvest and Jay keeps saying “we don’t have enough!” because she will take a pot full of chestnuts to her daycare centre.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Refreshing Saturday

  1. It’s morning, 6 degrees C. After harvesting vegetables for lunch I walk up and down the lawn to get the mud off my garden flip-flops’ soles. Then I take them off and continue barefoot. Refreshing!
  2. I encourage Jay to walk up to two strange ladies and ask to borrow a candle lighter. And she does it without hesitation. I remember her being a shy 5-year old but not anymore.
  3. I am ready to leave but then I wait till they are finished listening to the audio story The Mishmash Bakery, one of my favorites, too.

Friday, October 7, 2011

Friday's gone

The view from our Saturday's Dwarf's Hike, a gorgeous Indian Summer day
  1. There has been so much talk about the Indian Summer ending on Friday, and I was expecting 5 degrees and rain, and there is the sky, breath-takingly wild with colors and clouds, and the air at 15 degrees. (Which drops to 5 in the afternoon.)
  2. My friend calls in the morning to ask about my girls' condition (both home with high temperature and a headache) and it is perfect timing because I remember to call the school to report on their absence.
  3. I drift away while the gongs play.

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Thursday's harvesting

  1. I find some great website with English exercises and I don’t even blink while doing some of them during work time.
  2. It's almost dark when we leave the garden with a pile of red carrots pulled out of the ground and two handfuls of dried blossoms to be used for next year's seeds.
  3. Bedtime with Pippi Longstocking,  »Pippi goes to a coffee party«. Pippi makes a promise to Annika and Tommy:"... I have noticed several times that people don't think I know now to behave even when I'm trying as hard as I can. At sea we were never fussy about things like that. But I promise that I'll take special pains today so you won't have to be a ashamed of me.« I like it that she says »people don't think I know hot to behave« and not »people think I don't know how to behave«. Because Pippi knows. And she will only make extra effort for her friends’ sake.  

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Wednesday’s favorites

  1. Jay's new favorite color is red. »I think it is the strongest among colors«. She is wearing all red to her daycare today.
  2. I read a great poem by Janez Menart on the net, and I just love the last two lines: »…it's a fortune to have a path in front of me and a delight to take it.«
  3. Em’s class has been on a school excursion to the north-eastern part of Slovenia. I am happy she thought a particular site was so interesting that she took notes.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Interaction on Tuesday

  1. She uploads my photos to her computer and then e-mails them to mine. It takes at least 5 minutes and I really appreciate it. 
  2. I print-out the application and close the computer. I am mailing it, definitely.
  3. Our girls' afternoon out is more about sharing stories than about watching the movie.

Monday, October 3, 2011

The unusual Monday

  1. An unusual but expected new situation makes me feel slightly awkward, but I get through the day, somehow.
  2. I start the car and there is Amy's music in the air instead of the usual 3.30 p.m. news. 
  3. As soon as I walk through the door Em shares details about a school project she has been assigned to and has to do with interviewing a writer, and another one that she is planning herself and is all about dancing.

Sunday, October 2, 2011


  1. Sun. 
  2. Sore muscles, still, reminding me of my Friday bliss.
  3. Coming to an agreement with Em about her afternoon plans.

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Dwarf's Hike on Saturday

The children have been so looking forward to the Dwarf's Hike organized by the local daycare centre! They followed Bear Zdravko and SnowWhite and learnt why it is dangerous to light a fire in the wood, and why it is important for mushroom pickers to carry their trophies in a basket and not a sack, and who brings food to the animals in the woods at winter time... They did some jumping and dancing, and had pencakes and roasted potatoes and popcorn... What a glorious day in the sun!

Friday, September 30, 2011

A perfect Friday

I wasn’t all that confident about carrying out my big plan at 5 a.m. as I was on my way to the Alpine valley Logarska. But gradually the mind did take over and complemented my lack of physical strength which has given me the ultimate pleasure of the most beautiful sunrise with mountain peaks bathing in gold, a training of persistence by walking the serpentine trail till I reached the wall equipped with steel cables that led me to Kamniško sedlo, Kamnik saddle, 1.876 m alt.

The wonder of it all definitely exceeds the limitation of this blog’s 3, but for the sake of it I will pick 3 photos and write down 3 old wisdoms that have revealed to me in new disguises: 

1. If your path is the goal, your destination will reveal eventually.

2. You make your way along the trail of stones by stepping on them. 

3. Admitting to yourself what it is that you need to go on,
and giving yourself the luxury of it, is not a sign of weakness.

I can certainly call this one of the best days of my life.

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Smiling Thursday

  1. I am taking tomorrow off. Planning a great solo trip. Looking so forward to it that I can’t hold back but tell everyone I speak to. With a big smile on my face.
  2. I feel I need to share my opinion and when I get the chance I see my coworkers agree with me.
  3. We set a date for a girls’ afternoon out.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

1st Blogoversary!

  1. No queue and having the car insurance papers done in less than 20 minutes.
  2. She gives me a call back and I am happy to hear her voice. It’s nice to have a friend, a new friend.
  3. In the street, downtown, we spot a little boy, 1 year old the most, on a wooden tricycle with a seat as high to support him when he loses balance walking. And what a walker he is! Tiny, but fast.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Alive on Tuesday

  1. Jay slept over at my Mom's place. Her call was the first one I got in the morning. »Zdravo, mami…«
  2. She reads the story she has written to me and I agree that it is absolutely great. Em's eyes sparkle.
  3. It is pitch dark while I push my bicycle uphill. There is something black in the middle of road, I hear movement in the bushes, the adrenaline pumps in… wow, I am alive!  

Monday, September 26, 2011

Monday's for picking apples

  1. I greet the clients and the first thing the lady asks is whether I have changed the color of my hair. The first time she ever said anything that personal. On our last meeting.
  2. Picking apples always makes me realize it really is Autumn already. And I love watching Jay grab one right there, from the tree and eat it. 
  3. I miss them terribly but I enjoy the silence in the empty house... as long as it doesn't last too long.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Sunday by the river

I could hear the water fall over the river dam even when our bedroom windows were closed at my grandparents' place. My grandparents are gone now, and I will never be able to enter that house again, and that dam was never rebuilt after the flood 20 years ago, but I know it was there and that is where my love for river dams comes from.
We walked down to the nearest one on Sunday afternoon and it was great... We left behind the smell of the plum marmelade I had made at home, the second best thing that day, and Amy's Back to Black in the CD player, coming in third place.

Saturday, September 24, 2011

This week's 3

1. Jay at Pippi Longstocking festival's opening

2. Gathering material for a school project at Šenek parc

3. Didn't expect to see Europa's abduction on a Roman tombstone
at the Roman burial ground, Šempeter v Savinjski dolini
but there it was...

Monday, September 19, 2011

Monday bliss

  1. I manage to delete another 1.000 e-mails from my inbox and feel the bliss of e-decluttering.
  2. Unexpected exchange: I bring kiddy clothes and she offers listening to her gongs.
  3. It was an after-the-rain sunset with clouds giving room to a whole lot of sky, revealing a rainbow in the far distance and then changing their grey bellies to ash-pink, and I was amazed by the wild beauty of it all.

Friday, September 16, 2011

Even if..., it's OK on a Friday

  1. I thought I saw a familiar face but it was too distant to be sure about it. I make a call and find out I was mistaken but we both have a good laugh and it feels like old times, the good ones, 20 years ago.
  2. He may learn to do the job eventually,and if he doesn't, that is not your problem, it's the management's, she says to me, and I am relieved.
  3. We sit and talk and even if we don't have the time to go into details, we share that mutual understanding of our lives.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Thursday's for growing

  1. I am making peace with a certain situation every day almost like starting from scratch. But my confidence is growing.
  2. As soon as I take the blame, our communication changes from bad to good. I am learning. From books and from teenagers.
  3. I have no idea why I was pondering whether to take the bike and go someplace or not. I took the bike and as I cycled down the road there was a whole world right there, within my reach.

Sunday, September 11, 2011

3 on Sunday

  1. Feeling better. Physically, at least. 
  2. Jay wants to have a clean hairbrush. I show her how to remove all the hair and how to wash it. Then she does the same with her sister's brush. 
  3. I go through some finance newspaper, looking for something, a sign, a hint... And there it is, a group of children in the photo, and an article about... possibilities?

Friday, September 9, 2011

Friday in bed

  1. I am watching my life from a different perspective.
  2. I got to miss a boring meeting I had promised to attend, and couldn't train the newcomer because I wasn't there... It can't get any better than that. 
  3. After 24 hours of  quarantine I am desperate for my daughters' hugs.

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Cleaning up on Tuesday

  1. The golden sky greets me through the kitchen window. I smile back and pour myself a glass of water.
  2. Sometimes cleaning up is about dripping sweat and letting all the accumulated negativity evaporate, clean tiles being only the side effect.
  3. Jay is happy to give away her little plastic kitchen stove… She will be able to play with it at the daycare every day, and so will her mates.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

A trustworthy Tuesday

  1. I look through the window and the sky above the hills is pink and it is perfect as perfect can be.
  2. It took me more than a week to make that call, but now I know why. I am learning to trust my instincts.
  3. She lets out a timid laugh. We are shopping for her first bras.

Monday, August 22, 2011

Monday heat

  1. We spend our break eating burek in the shade of the trees, with no people in sight, ignoring the parking lot at our back. I drift away.
  2. I think “library” and Jay suggests: “Let’s go to the library!” Mindreaders they are, my girls.
  3. Their laughter is like a cool breeze on my hot troubled soul.

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Sunny day

  1. I go upstairs to start on my weekend morning workout but then I just lie down on the bed in the guest room and listen to the sounds coming through the open window.
  2. Jay is tired, so tired in the evening. I ask her why she didn’t take that afternoon nap with me but rather put away books and clutter from the nightstands instead, and she says confidently: “It was the right day to do it.”
  3. The movie on the TV spills over excitement over travelling to new places, meeting new people and opening oneself to new adventures.

Friday, August 19, 2011

Friday at 2063 m alt.

It has been my big wish to be able to go hiking someplace really high sometime this summer... like back many years ago when I hiked to just about every peak (but one) in the Kamnik-Savinja Alps range...
And today I did it.
I took the day off from work, animated our family and we drove off to the mountain hut at 1500 m alt. and from there the three of us continued on to the top of the mountain Raduha, 2063 m alt. It took me 2 hours to get there which is 30 minutes more than what the signs suggested. Not a timing I should brag about, but my fit isn't either. It has been a challenge for me, indeed. And for Em, my 11-year old. I am very proud of her.

I am happy, still full of adrenaline and penetrated by all those energizing negative ions, and making plans for the next tour.

The top of Raduha, only 2 hours' hike away.

Just 10 minutes to go!

At the top of the mountain, with a magnificient view 
of the Kamnik-Savinja Alps and Julian Alps far right, in the mist.
It was worth it, every step.

Sunday, August 7, 2011

Sunday afternoon out in the open

We spent some time at the open-air museum at Rogatec.
1. A cottage surrounded by the vineyard...
2. Beehives (this one's for you, Rebecca!) found, bracelets lost...
3. And old houses, my favorite!

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Wednesday’s for learning

  1. Jay manages to strike the birdie with the racquet and I tell her what a great badminton player she is learning to be. “I have started to learn two new things: swimming without armbands and badminton!” she says smiling. I have forgotten what joy it is to learn new things and it is nice to be reminded again.
  2. “Mommy, all houses have to face the highest mountain in Bali! And they can’t be any higher then a palmtree!” And then, when the documentary is over and we are ready for sleep, I grab the atlas and look for Bali, and then Em has to find Tahiti, all because I had a penfriend there back when I was a teenager.
  3. I read a passage from the book about family values and it depicts my situation exactly, and then I know that my feelings make sense. Sometimes.

Monday, August 1, 2011

Another working day

  1. Breakfast to take to the office and breakfast for the fortunate ones staying at home.
  2. I am finished gardening just as I feel raindrops on my sweaty skin.
  3. We occupy the big bed and nothing can tear us apart.

Friday, July 22, 2011

My hectic Friday

  1. The day before going away on a vacation is always a bad day for me. Today's that day. But it starts off pretty well. I go get some certificates and there is no queue. And I have just enough time to meet a friend for coffee.
  2. Lunch is served. By me. 
  3. And the day ends quite successfully also: plush doggies are packed; books are in the bags along with the swimsuits.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Cloudy Tuesday

1. Hiking in the woods. Both girls enjoy it. They spot a butterfly.
2. Perfect lunch: green beans from our garden.
3. Playing a new game: Mother Crow guarding her eggs from the predators.

Monday, July 18, 2011

Rainy Monday

  1. I like summer rain. And there was a whole lot of rain today...
  2. I am offered help in the kitchen. And I didn't even ask for it. Jay is doing the dishes.
  3. When I enter the library I notice there is another librarian there. And I realize how much I like the other lady that I see behind the counter every week.

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Sunny Sunday

1. Spending a whole day with the sun, the vineyards and the hills.

2. A glass of wine under a straw roof.

 3. I think I have found the perfect house for me.

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Saturday's delights

  1. Buying fruit at the open market in Ljubljana.
  2. Drinking tea and endulging in a blueberry cake at the Cha House.
  3. Seeing the girls smiling and with paper feathers garlanding their heads, the ones they created at the Slovenian Ethnographic Museum.

Friday, July 15, 2011

It's Friday!

  1. It's 10 minutes to leaving the office. I am done. My 2-week vacation, here I come!  Just a brief about my projects to my superior. Who happens to remember about a thing that needs to be done. Urgently. Two sentences and he's out of the office and I am stuck by my desk for another hour. Seeing another colleague working in her cubicle makes the situation more bearable from the very first instant; deciding that I am not letting such expressions of power get to me for more than 1 minute, makes it just another assignment; and realizing it is unnecessary once I gather the data and do the analysis, makes it a total absurd that gives me good laugh when I shut down the computer and leave.
  2. She listens and I don't expect her to say anyhing, but then she presents my options very objectively and although it doesn't solve anyhing, it is easier to reflect on it without that strong emotional tone. 
  3. They are three lovely 11-year olds, so full of life, laughter, love. I am so impressed by the the flow of energy among them that I can't help wondering about chances of bringing them together really soon again when the other two girls leave.

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Thursday perspectives

  1. I bring the 3-D optical illusion card to the office in the morning. I’ve tried several times before but I couldn’t see the hidden image… I try again now. And again. Then I turn it upside down. I see a whole lot more now. I am almost there. Then I turn it right again. And there it is: the hand holding a ball. Starting fresh in the morning, persistence and looking from another angle give a different / better perspective.
  2. I wait for everyone to leave the house. Then I sneak downstairs and bring that small container of ice-cream… I know it’s full of artificial additives, and it’s not even my favorite flavor, but its cold creamy sweetness brings me back into the moment.
  3. There is plenty of room on the couch but she finds the perfect spot, so close to me we both feel like she’s sitting in my lap.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Wednesday signs

  1. She is standing close to the tennis court fence, watching and waiting for the slightest sign from her sister.
  2. It’s all lettuce seedlings and no soil. It looks like clover but it’s really rocket lettuce.
  3. II feel the tension build within me. How I hate having to pick, having to make a decision when none of the options is what I truly want. But then I give in and send off the e-mail. I get a call back that it’s too late. The Universe knows - and that is comforting.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Gently on a Tuesday

  1. “It died,” she says looking at a little bug lying on the asphalt. Then she carries it away with her spade and gently lays it on the lawn.
  2. I neatly sort the documents, trash all the unnecessary papers and my desk looks almost perfect when I leave the office.
  3. I need solid ground to be able to take off and then to land and take off again. I have always known solid ground was an illusion, but lately I am even more aware of it. The good thing is that I have a runway within me. I just forget that sometimes. And it is good to remember.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Thursday’s fields

  1. Em’s list of activities has shrunk from school work, piano & dancing lessons, reading, playing with her sister and enjoying outdoors to the last three on the list this summer. My adding “housework assistance” on her list doesn’t make her too cheerful but it makes up a great practice field for good argumentation, fair negotiation and quiet compromising for both of us.
  2. I have fought against reading books by a foreign family therapist for a long time, just because there had been so media coverage about his works and his readings… or maybe because I thought I was past diving into theory… Anyway, I now have two books of his, brought home from the local library, and the first pages are great.  
  3. I brush by the shrub to check on the tomatoes and the scent of Lemon Balm is released instantly.   

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Light Wednesday

  1. We cross ways with a little hedgehog, now lying on the lawn, trembling and breathing really deep. The girls are amazed, but then we all give it space to go its way.
  2. Ice-cream tarts and freshly squeezed lemonades and thick stone walls.
  3. Late night thoughts start to wear me down, but then I read some uplifting love sonnets and all that heaviness is gone.

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Tuesday's fun

  1. “Will you be home soon?” Jay asks, half asleep and embracing the plush doggies to keep her company.
  2. I am not sure it was mother-daughter quality time, but it was definitely fun going to the movies and then shopping for Em’s first pair of All Stars sneakers ever.
  3. My friend’s cheerful voice brought back memories of long ice-cream afternoon chats by the river Ljubljanica.

Thursday, June 30, 2011

Thursday’s live

  1. My early summer enthusiasm over small but steady positive changes in my perspective melts down in the office heat, but I decide I will just let it pass and not give up.

  2. As approach the post office I see a swallow flying away from the building. I look closer and see a nest above the entrance, beneath a small roof.

  3. “I love our whole family…” says Jay lying in the big bed and starts listing names of the family members, ”… and myself.”  

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Wednesday’s brightness

  1. I laugh at Em wearing my Mother’s huge round out-of-date dark sunglasses to filter the bright early morning sun. 

  2. At the new library I run into a friend and her girls. It’s nice to meet friends in places I enjoy.

  3. There is still enough light coming through the window to read the bedtime story.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Tuesday’s news

  1. I say no to a promotion that I have been passed up for twice before, a job that I am more than qualified to do.  
  2. She catches me by surprise with her new hair-cut. I look at her and I see me from many many years ago.
  3. The girls tour the driving training roads with their bikes while I read an article about a kayaking adventure in the shade. I am easy.

Monday, June 27, 2011

Bold without blinking on a Monday

1. I walk across the parking lot when I see an empty beer tin being thrown out of a car. The car gets started just as I am about to pass by. I knock on the fellow driver’s side car window. Next thing I know I am looking in the eyes of a teenage chubby boy and a man in the driver’s seat that is probably his father.
“Do you think it is the right thing to do to throw trash out of your car?”
“Yes!” says the big man.
“Do you think you are giving a good example to your child?”
“Then it is OK.” That’s all I can say and then I walk away.
It was bold and I have never done it before, but I think it was also a good & right thing to do.

2. I glance at a baby in his pushchair and I see he’s staring at me (or better, at my glasses) without blinking. He is the loveliest little boy in a navy blue striped T-shirt. Time stops for three or four seconds. 

3. Jay starts sweeping the paved path in our vegetable garden with her little broom, and doesn’t stop till she’s finished. I can see she is proud of herself and I am, too. 

Sunday, June 26, 2011

My weekend highlights

  1. Our guests are amazed to see their girls eat their veggie soup and even ask to try the celery soup with small lumps made of bucketwheat flour… I feel rewarded for all the time and energy spent on peeling, chopping, stirring, cooking, mixing and baking.
  2. When Jay’s bike is no longer connected to her dad’s with the tow bar and she has to pedal herself she starts complaining that her bike is slow because of the installed tow bar’s receivers. A perfect example of how quickly we get used to easy going which makes me smile.
  3. It's wonderful to see the lettuce sprouts in just one week of germination.

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Wednesday’s fine

  1. My morning starts with a glass of mineral water and a page in the book about Alma Karlin.
  2. I walk through the door and the first thing she has to say is: “Can you imagine it’s the last day of school tomorrow?” No. I don’t want to believe it’s her last day in 6th Grade.  
  3. I dive into the ocean within me and I feel dizzy and unstable although I am sitting on the floor. But I am fine, just fine. 

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Thursday’s great people

Jay talks me into stopping by and saying hello to her little friend and her family outside their lovely home:
  1. They seem such great people and I am glad to have met them.
  2. The grass around their house is so thick it feels like walking on a carpet.
  3. The girls are like two balls bouncing all around the garden and jiggling all the time.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Wednesday outcomes

  1. I feel ignored and then I feel relieved. We know the right down deep inside, always.
  2. There is a moment when I feel absolutely exhausted from my long working day but then the adrenaline of experimenting in the kitchen rushes in – and I put the dish in the oven and I am done.
  3. There is wide variety to choose from and everything smells so good.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Tuesday perfect timing

  1. I send my book review on time and wait patiently to see it on the web along with others’ reviews.
  2. Despite recent missing lessons and changing teachers Em completes another piano school year with a smile on her face.   
  3. I ran after Jay and nearly catch her but she made up a new rule so I have to stand still as soon as she stops. We go on running around our garden and I don’t even lose my breath.

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Spanish Thursday

  1. The children dance and they twirl and they bounce and crawl to music from different parts of Europe. 
  2. Jay and her mates wear red T-shits and a red blossom in their hair - featuring Spain. The only thing missing is that she is not one of the few mates from her group that will be going to school in the fall to yell "Ole!" at the end of their performance.
  3. Some dancers are especially sweet...

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Wednesday's greens

Our late afternoon in shades of green,
talking, laughing, together.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Tuesday's for letting go

  1. I hold the cowboy and inspect all the little plastic parts that come with it, and they are all there, in the original box, for almost 40 years.
  2. I make some more space on my bookshelves and pile up some more books for the school library. Everybody’s happy.
  3. I get a late birthday present and it says to me “write, write, just write…”

Monday, June 6, 2011

Monday, Monday, so good to me

  1. There is birds' singing in the air and raindrops on the grass as I walk down to the garden to get the lettuce.
  2. After my 30-minute decluttering session I look through the window and I see the rainbow but it disappears very soon. When I look again an hour later there is another rainbow.
  3. Jay sits at the table with a bowl of red cherries right in front of her.

Sunday, June 5, 2011

My weekend highlights

  1. The dance production Odysseyade is staged at the local theater. I love how Em and her group present the creation of the world according to Greek mythology.
  2. I watch them leave, holding hands down the sidewalk and the sight of their sisterly love warms my heart. 
  3. We come visit our friends to meet their 5-days old Icelandic foal. The girls and I hardly get the chance to touch its soft hair because the overprotective mare is just a step away all the time. Zippy bounces in the meadow like a child.

photo: Ž.U.

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Blown away on a Thursday

  1. Morning starts with: »Who do you think I am to carry you around in the middle of the night?«. »My relative!« the little girl says back to her daddy.
  2. I am greeted by the fresh wind blowing away the office stuffiness. Going home.
  3. I sneak into her bed while she is still brushing her teeth in the bathroom. She is most happy to see me there and then lectures me about how I am not allowed to read now because she has so much to tell me.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Releasing energy on a Wednesday

  1. I make a presentation at work. All my suggestions are accepted and I feel like it is because of the excess of energy I am feeling.
  2. “It’s too much energy built up in there,” the therapist says. How it cannot be when I am carrying my whole world on my shoulders, I think to myself. They hurt from the massage but it is a good pain.  
  3. I ask Jay to tell me her three good things at bedtime and she says without hesitation: »Seeing Vita, my friend, spending time at the daycare centre, going for a trip and ice-cream with daddy.« It is as simple as that: friends, a stimulating environment and happy time spent with your loved ones.  

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Tuesday’s time out

  1. She stops by my desk and shares details about her new furniture. It’s wonderful to see her happy and smiling again.
  2. The smell of freshly cut wood in the workshop.
  3. I turn on the TV just as the guys play scenes with garden dwarfs in The Full Monty.

Monday, May 30, 2011

Monday sources

  1. I feel the spark of a new professional perspective lighten in my brain but it’s put out by the feed-back from the mayor’s office. A tailor-made job advertisement, obviously. I am annoyed which is not good. The good thing is that I feel activated to move on, to do something, anything. Even dishes.
  2. The driving training roads are busy with small cyclists. I wait for Jay to cycle by, happy to see her smiling and being so proud of herself.
  3. I look through the window and I see our trampoline and the vegetable garden, the oak tree and houses and then the hilly horizon in the golden evening sun and I know I have so much to be grateful for. 

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Sunday's highlights

  1. We go for a long walk and Em asks me to talk about my recent reads and afterwards she tells me about hers. Happy time.
  2. The smell of allspice from freshly baked cookies in our home.
  3. As I close the window in the room upstairs I see the illuminated church belltowers on the hilltop and I think to myself how my father would have enjoyed that view if he had ever slept over in that room.

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Thursday's creativity

  1. »Are you happy I am helping you?« »Yes, I am, Jay.« And so are the little seeds we plant and the lettuce we water.
  2. A wonderful piece of art in my mail box saying »Life is a Mess – just breathe« - and live it to the maximum, I add in my mind.
  3. Despite low quality of some old family black & white photos the scans are very fine and I put together a project I had in mind for a while now. Healing comes my way. 

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Wednesday’s turn-outs

  1. My last minute arrangements for lunch break turn out delicious.
  2. There is a late afternoon summer breeze and hula-hoops being whirled around.
  3. It’s late and I am tired and I don’t want to do my exercise – but then Jay joins me and comments the DVD workout and I do it anyway, and it feels good to win against my biggest enemy, laziness, just by being distracted by my little girl.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Monday’s naturals

  1. Jay keeps bringing me new and new storybooks from the library shelves while I ponder whether to borrow two or three for myself.
  2. I encourage Em to go for a hike but she tells me she had already gone out, saw a rainbow just as she walked down the road and around the corner, ran home to get her camera but the rainbow disappeared by the time she came back. Em likes rainbows just like me.
  3. I harvest some vegetable from the garden and listen to the evening singing from the forest and the meadow.

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Sunday at home

  1. The DVD workout requires weights – I don’t have any, and half a liter bottles with water are too light. I laugh at the thought of my girls waking up and seeing me do those upper body exercises with a package of flour in an extra plastic sack, each in one hand.
  2. I use muscovado and add less than required in the recipe, sprinkle with chopped hazelnuts instead of the usual blueberries. After it is baked and ready to eat I hold my breath to hear family feedback. “This is gooood!”
  3. Jay dashes through the door to report: “I can ride the bike by myself!” What could be greater than that, to be able to ride anywhere with the wind in your face and your hair?

Thursday, May 19, 2011

An unpredictable Thursday

  1. It is starting to be impossible to predict her response to clothes I buy for her and to places I take her to. She is growing up, definitely.
  2. The unfairness of the situation makes me a little angry. But no one is to blame. And I am the only one to deal with it. So I just dive in and I am over and done with it by the time I have to leave.
  3. It was 100% pure magic to listen to their music live, again. The neighboring town’s school gym may not be the perfect environment but it’s packed with locals and non-locals, even with people speaking German and English, and we are all just enchanted.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Wednesday’s fine

  1. There are some great things in my mailbox today: a romantic movie and some embarrassing stories to read which remind me of situations when I felt the blush rising in my face. All is fine as long as I am able to laugh at myself.
  2. I glance at the TV screen wishing I had the time to sit down and watch the movie amid all the things and people that call for my attention. But it’s really just an impulse because I like the actress and her haircut, and what I really want is to give a shower to Jay and sweet-talk her to sleep.
  3. I can’t remember the last time a book made me cry… My cheeks are wet from tears and it is so liberating. It’s only just page 94 and more than another 100 pages to go.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Tuesday smiles

  1. I dial an unknown number and hear a familiar voice. Happy memories from 20 years ago come to surface.
  2. I make a crazy promise to wear a very short skirt for a certain special occasion which is very unlikely to take place ever. The whole family laughs just at the thought of it. I do, too.
  3. The smell of strawberries in my shower. I check the image on the container if it is just strawberries or strawberries with cream.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Tuesday surprises

  1. Em is eager to read her new poem to me. Indeed, a perfect combination of her favourite activities: writing rhymes about reading books.
  2. A postcard and a letter in my mailbox. They are from different countries, but both have polar bear stamps.
  3. I drive to the local theatre in the rain drizzling evening. Then the light cuts through the drapery and I see two ends of a rainbow. My first rainbow scene this year. 

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Tuesday highlights

  1. The shop lady’s smiling face makes my morning.
  2. I forward my translation of the poem to a couple of friends and they agree that it's grand.
  3. We take the long path through the woods. I listen to my daughter's excitement over the last book of the Ink Trilogy, enjoy the sight of periwinkle flowers and green beeches and make sure I don't run out of breath. 

Monday, April 18, 2011

Monday harmony

  1. My friend from the office and I share a blissful moment of complete understanding of what we are saying to one another. We look at each other and smile.
  2. I am amazed by Em’s report about an art project that nine classmates had agreed to put together but eventually only two showed up, Em being one of them, and did the work that challenged their creativity and gave them a sense of accomplishment. Way to go, girls!
  3. I answer the phone only to realize that the caller and I are standing 2 minutes away from each other and that this is one of those meant-to-be happy meetings over a cup of decaf.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Breezy Wednesday

  1. Jay plays her zither and sings along. Then she invites us all to sit down on the blanket in our living room and have cookies and nuts. Happy time.
  2. I take a deep breath and enjoy the quietness. The evening breeze with scents of spring on my face and in my hair.
  3. My back muscles are no longer tight. (I know my sleep tonight won't be either.)

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Tuesday stories

  1. Jay puts up another puppet show about Cinderella. Unlike in the traditional version she put up yesterday this time Cinderella dances with the Prince, the Gingerbreadman, the Ballerina and some other puppets placed over wooden spoon handles so Jay could hold them all. Her narration is great. I am amazed.
  2. I see a bookmark stuck in another of Em’s thick books. We have an agreement about not starting a new book before Friday due to school tests this week… and apparently she couldn’t help herself but to read the first two pages. I can imagine her excitement about a great story so very well, that wonderful anticipation.
  3. There are stories residing within me. I just don’t have the time and the energy to let them out. But it is all fine because I know they are there, waiting for more attention.

Monday, March 14, 2011

Jay's gifts of love

A bouquet for Mommy!

A tiny gift of sisterly love!

Good night to all lovely Dolls!

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Thursday gifts

  1. For a short and blissful moment I was listening to a professional team and learnt from the experts. 
  2. Lunch on the table and all costumes taken care of. I am grateful. Mom knows.
  3. I love how smooth stretched fresh sheets feel.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Wednesday winds

  1. A strong wind in my face with snowflakes landing on my glasses. 
  2. My friend has the answers to all my questions. She has my whole life figured out. We laugh.
  3. The lady at the local library is kind and always able to suggest a good book. My reading list is a whole lot longer because of her.

Tuesday, March 1, 2011


  1. A box with a pink label attracts my attention. I buy two. Rose Bud Tea. I can’t wait to try it.
  2. She looks at herself in the mirror, enchanted. My pink fairy.
  3. I listen to the sweet melody of the lady’s pronunciation. And I know exactly where she’s from.

Monday, February 28, 2011

Monday Live

  1. Jay creates a card with a lovely red bow for her best friend Rebecca. I admire her persistence in copying all the letters to write the birthday wish inside the card. And I love how her letters flow up and down as if they were live and not following some invisible line like mine.
  2. A lovely card in the mail. An illustration from the Russian folk tale »The Turnip«.
  3. »Only 4 more days till Em’s back, right?« Jay sighs in the darkness a few minutes before falling asleep.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Sunday’s happy

  1. When the series of Sunday morning cartoons on TV is over Jay gets a creative bug and starts looking trough the drawers for paper and glue. She creates a happy paper Sun with a glittery heart in the centre.
  2. I leave muddy footprints on patches of snow.
  3. They share tears and smiles knowing they won’t be seeing each other for 4 days. A bond between sisters I never knew.

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Thursday's delights

  1. The surroundings are dark and misty as I walk down the road but the moon lights behind the clouds.
  2. Chocolate cake delights them both. What is it with chocolate & girls?
  3. I close my eyes while listening to the story Boy and Magic shoes that Em has written for her school assignment. I feel her breath on my face.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Wednesday wonders

  1. A lovely card with two birds and poppy flowers against the pink background in the mail.
  2. Jay asks me to come listen to her short composition on the piano. It’s a variation to a melody her big sister has taught her and it is perfect.
  3. At dusk I look through our living room window just in time to see two roe deer’s white patches disappear in the wood.


Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Great finds

  1. While sorting paper clutter that has been piling up over the last few years I find an envelope with photos from Em’s 6th birthday party.
  2. The little boy seems uncomfortable among strangers while waiting outside the doctor’s room for his daddy to reappear. I try destressing him by pointing at the calendar on the wall to show him how very near school holidays and Shrove Tuesday are. A smile lightens his face.
  3. After some 50 pages I am ready to stop reading the novel any further… I give it another few pages. Good decision.

Monday, February 14, 2011

My Valentines

  1. An unexpected gift for Valentines.
  2. Jay returns to the bathroom wearing Em's pyjamas laughing and singing: "I'm St. Nicolaus!"
  3. We read a story at bedtime about a game a little girl and her daddy play "if I were you...". We turn-off the light and I turn to Jay: "Would you want to be me? I would love to be you....!" "No!" she says. Then I hear Em's voice coming from her room: "You know who I'd want to be? Me. I like who I am, what I do and how I do it. And if I do something wrong, I know I can change that."

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Wednesday's goodies

  1. My colleague approaches to tell me how wonderful the book I have lent her is and as I check out what page she is on I know she hasn't even come to the best part of the story yet.
  2. Jay recites a new Neza Maurer's poem that she has learnt, and Em goes through her opening lines to the inteview she is having with the very same poet tomorrow. I couldn't be more proud of my girls.
  3. I walk down to the store and back. It's cold and I am carrying two bags, no mobile phone to call for a lift, but that is what I had planned and made sure I didn't have any excuses to not have some excercise even if it is below zero degrees. Then just as I approach our house I see a car pull out of the garage and I know my husband thought of driving down the road to meet me part-way, and I think that's nice.  

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Notes, vision boards and toes

  1. I throw a bunch of notes into my paper recycling bin. They are either my to-do lists that I have been able to tick off or print-outs with tips I no longer need. How liberating!
  2. I have been playing with the idea of making a vision board for myself for quite a while now. But I hadn't had the time to do it. Then it hit me today: the background of my icons on my computer screen at work is like a vision board. And I have had a photo of a huge fatty piece of pastry coated with sugar there and I know it hasn't been doing me any good. I replaced it with a gorgeous photo with mountains peaks that I had hiked to 15 years ago. There. My vision board. Summer 2011 it is.
  3. I gently touch her toes while she studies details in the illustrations in her magazine. I love touching Jay's toes. They are so tiny and smooth and round... like pearls.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Artsy Thursday it is

  1. “One of those is mine!” says Jay as we walk beneath the hanging mobiles of house-drawings in the hallway.
  2. As I rush down the street I notice a little girl in a big purple knitted wolly cap.
  3. It’s midnight and I am shivering cold but I've completed the story book translation on one sitting and I’m happy. Why do I do it? Nobody asked me to, nobody’s paying, it’s just for my own pleasure to pick up a story in Slovenian and dive into translating it at my best.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Sweet Wednesday

  1. I find out that my present did get into the hands of the sweet little girl.
  2. A whole cup of sweet creamy milk is poured over a soufflé with a golden crust. It’s gone within a second and the crust is still golden but softer.
  3. Looking at the falling snow through a stained glass. My view changes colors depending on which part of the window I look through.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Ring-ting Tuesday!

  1. I’m sitting next to the characters from the book and the next thing I know there is a car in front me and I'm walking across a parking lot.
  2. At sunset Jay and I go for a walk to the hillside facing south. We ascend an old vineyard (with vines still growing without any attachment to their stakes with a patina of moss) and pick some bright yellow primroses. We each blow a flower, then eat it up and pick new ones. With hedges of primroses all around spring seems near although it’s only just mid-January. Ring-ting!
  3. Paper petals in different shades of burgundy on our dining table.

Monday, January 17, 2011

Monday, Monday, so good to me

  1. The hilly eastern horizon is on fire with black tree-silhouettes in the foreground and a single star high above. Dawn.
  2. So nice to have the daylight stay with us longer. Jay and I are still able to walk to the library in the late late afternoon witnessing a sun-set in the most incredible shades of pink. It delights Jay so much that she does some of her abracadabra jiggles in the middle of our local road and tempts the sky to move closer so she can touch it with her hand. Then we descend further down the road holding our Lila Prap imaged-bag with children’s books each by one handle.
  3. One little boy climbing a ladder to reach for the dinosaurs’ book on the top library bookshelf and handing it down to another little boy. But then he realizes it is not the book he wanted and tries to put it back. That’s when I step in and he gratefully accepts my help.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

My recent (unaffected-by-the-virus-) beautiful

  1. Jay sneaks into the room and leans her head on my arm as I lie on my bed. I turn my head and all I can see are her smiling eyes and her silky blond hair.
  2. Her friend’s gift, a cyclamen T-shirt with white hand-prints, fits Em perfectly. She does a happy dance in front of the mirror.
  3. An e-mail in my inbox informing me that I’ve been picked to write a book review and that will be receiving a free copy of the book in a few days.

Monday, January 10, 2011

Monday's favorites

  1. As my colleague and I sit down by the table outside the patisserie the shop lady offers two red blankets through the window. We wrap them around our legs and feel warm and cozy. 
  2. I get a call from a person working at some education institution informing me that the seminar I was interested in a while ago is taking place soon. It is tempting.
  3. I ask Jay to wait in the bed till I come to read to her. »I will go through this book and then I will play with the culcalator.« She has her own way of saying calculator, her latest favorite device.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Sunday News!

  1. There is a scent of spring in the wind.
  2. Our guests are thrilled about the home-made pizza with bear’s garlic pesto.  
  3. Jay doesn't like combing her hair. Much less having it washed as she dreads getting water in her eyes. But this time she's enjoying it. “Mommy, I hear rustling when bubbles pop!” she says with a big smile on her face topped with a bubbly hair-do.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Vibrant on a Wednesday

  1. She glows while sharing details about her holidays with me.
  2. I stick a package with two cookies in my handbag but Jay spots them right away.  
  3. I feel the healing vibrations of the gong in my body.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Close on a Tuesday

  1. The first time I see a gong so close I could touch it. I love the shimmer of light on the brass.
  2. I watch Jay lean over to Em and gently touch Em’s face with her little hand to bring it closer so she could confide something only Em should hear. Sisterly love.
  3. There is an interview with a photographer on TV. He’s wearing a knitted scarf with stripes in bright shades of pink and orange.

Monday, January 3, 2011

Coooool Monday!

  1. Footprints in the snow: my daughter’s, my Mom’s and a dog’s (that we haven’t got yet).
  2. Bare branches of oaks against the blueness above me.
  3. Warmth with a cooling effect. Peppermint tea.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Cozy Sunday

  1. I am wandering the dark streets of Barcelona while lying in my bed. 
  2. Snowflakes dance with me in an enchanted land of white. 
  3. There is only one spoonful left of the tuna spread Em made.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

A new day

I am grateful for new beginnings. Every day is a new beginning.

  1. I love Strauss' walzes. It's January 1, indeed.
  2. It's sunny and the ground in the forest is soft.
  3. My coconut roll looks like a disaster, but it is delicious. Even my Mom thinks so.