Monday, October 27, 2014

  1. My colleague at work notices that I feel better, more relaxed, less stressed out. It is true. Mostly it has to do with my working on accepting what is and not fighting it all so much.
  2. I didn’t have even an instant to consider my action or reaction. I ran into a group of people at the top of the stairs and said hi, and she was one of them and that was that.
  3. I run errands after work and get my computer delivered by my cousin and her lovely daughter Naja that come visit. And my girls have a lot to share about the school work they have done during their day at home. I have an overall good feeling of accomplishment at the end of the day.

Thursday, October 16, 2014

  1. It is hard when you feel like you had bad luck getting a lower grade than expected. But within a few hours she manages to process the whole school thing and I see a smile on her face. And that is all that matters.
  2. After I am finished making pizza I decide to go for a walk before it’s served. It’s all wonderful: the smell of freshly cut grass as I cross the clearing, my deep breathing, the wind at the top of the hill where I make a stop next to the old church.
  3. Jay teaches me to play the piano with my left hand while she plays with her right one. It feels awkward and looks strange as if I had cramping fingers, but we manage somehow and laugh a whole lot.

Sunday, October 12, 2014

  1. Pegging out washing in the sun is my favorite time, even when it needs to be done in a hurry.
  2. Jay helps pouring the glasses while I put them in the yoghurt maker. It is our Sunday afternoon ritual only that we have it done earlier today and I don’t need to get up in the middle of the night to turn off the machine.
  3. Two apples, snatched right from the tree as we walk up the hill through the orchard, Jay and I. I set bad examples. So did my Mom, many many autumns ago but we have created great memories back then.

Thursday, October 9, 2014

  1. A full moon morning sky.
  2. I let go of worry about who is going to pick up Jay and just sit in the sun, waiting for my friend Darja to join me.
  3. Instead of driving straight home late in the evening I make a detour to our old neighborhood. I drive by the house that used to belong to my grandparents, with the light in one window, and further by the neighboring burgundy villa, all dark because nobody lives there anymore. It is all different now yet familiar and heart-warming.

Wednesday, October 8, 2014

  1. I stand in front of Em's school, waiting for the taxi, with young students passing by, chatting, laughing. So much life, so many good vibes.
  2. I suggested her to get involved in another activity, focus on another goal and her feelings will change from bad to good. When she returns from her dance sesssion, hungry like a wolf, she has a smile on her face. (I should remember to do the same the next time I feel run over.)
  3. I can't stop watching. Inspiring movies are good. Opera singing is great.

Tuesday, October 7, 2014

  1. A brief walk in the woods and feeling really happy I don’t run into any other hikers.
  2. Jay waits for me outside to chase her around the garden.
  3. I try to speed up my reading but the topic is to complex. Still, I do finish the chapter.

Tuesday, September 30, 2014

  1. I am late coming back to the office from my lunch break but a walk to the mall and back in all this sun is so worth it.
  2. Naja turned 1 a short while ago and plays in our sandbox for the first time. It is funny to see her pondering whether to touch the pile of sand in front of her for the first time or not.
  3. The catalogue offers a lovely armchair in patchwork-kind of textile. I can imagine it standing in a small salon in the burgundy villa that I wouldn’t mind living in.

Monday, September 29, 2014

  1. My morning: finding Jay all wrapped up in her bed cover as if it were a cocoon and the eastern skies at sunrise.
  2. For about 5 minutes I thought I had lost my Mom's wallet with her cards and driving license. The good thing is in what didn’t happened, in the what is. Which means I have a lot to appreciate.
  3. The trainer remarked that her skills have improved a lot over summer. Jay beams with pride when she shares this news.

Thursday, September 25, 2014

  1. The last (second) edition of the Dictionary of Slovenian language delivered. There is nothing like the smell of a book right out from printing, with pages full of words, Slovenian words, even the kind I don’t know the meaning of (yet).
  2. Jay wanted to go track running to the school yard. I didn't feel like it, but then we get a lift there. We have a blast running and playing football in the late afternoon sun.
  3. At the store Jay picks out a bag for me. We don’t end up buying it, but she knows what I like, definitely.

Monday, September 22, 2014

  1. I can’t do any more praying. I focus on what I need to text to Em. A relief on her face as she returns to the waiting room. This is a good day.
  2. Em’s first grade at physics.
  3. The dentist smiles at us as we walk in and calls Jay a princess.

Thursday, September 18, 2014

  1. I got my monthly pay check. And I have a job. I am grateful.
  2. There is a traffic jam on our way home and we leave the highway, but there is one on the local road, too. We slowly drive by a field of sunflowers. This view is worth the detour.
  3. I had good intentions to go to bed super early. Then I go to Em's room and she talks about school, about her mates and teachers, and shares about her feelings, and she cries a little and laughs a lot, and then we laugh until we cry, and it is all wonderful and it extends late into the night.

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

  1. Knowing that this project can’t possible take as long to get it off my back as it has taken up till now is my only motive at the office today.
  2. Removing beans from the pods with Jay is the highlight of my day. The harvest from our vegetable garden fill up a big bowl.
  3. Home-made tuna spread for supper. Because my girls love it.

Tuesday, September 16, 2014

  1. I don’t have to call the taxi today. First my coworker Greg gives me a lift downtown, and after the meeting Barb gladly offers to take me home.
  2. My first parents' meeting at Em's school. The same school I attended only 32 years earlier. Amazing. Same place, but so different, all renovated and so cooool.
  3. As soon as I walk through the door they come downstairs and give me a big hug. Just what I needed after a long day.

Sunday, September 14, 2014

  1. I feel uncomfortable knowing there are present, sitting just a few benches behind me, but not running into them after the ceremony is definitely a good thing.
  2. Finally we are out of the door and doing our Sunday afternoon walk and picking walnuts nobody wanted to pick. We are lucky to have sun again.
  3. At bedtime Jay sneaks into my bed to play a Sudoku on my mobile phone and cuddle a little before going to her room. After she leaves Em comes in and shares about her joys and fears for the coming 3rd week at Secondary school. I wish I could extend moments like these to infinity.

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

  1. For a short moment it seems like Jay has something in her hair, then I realize it is shimmering in the bathroom light like it was made of gold.
  2. I dread the meeting then I check my phone and there is a message it's cancelled.
  3. Sneezing for 20 times is annoying but kind of liberating.

Tuesday, September 9, 2014

  1. Thankful to my friends: to M. who gives me a lift to get to our family car, and to K. from Denmark, for the lovely update.
  2. Jay lays down next to me on the big bed. She says it is cuddling time and wraps her arms and legs around me.
  3. I have a new laptop at home, the first one of my own, and when nothing works like it should I decide to be super patient with myself. And then I shut it down and use the stationary bike instead.

Thursday, July 24, 2014

  1. As soon as I see the pendant with the funny owl, I know I need to buy it for Jay.
  2. The salesman at the bookstore says: You will manage yourself, won’t you. It’s more of a statement than a question, because I am regular.
  3. While Em and I watch our favorite TV episode together I hear Jay and her friend laughing outside, on the trampoline.

Sunday, July 20, 2014

  1. Finding out that the pharmacy, 15-minutes’ drive away, is open on Sunday mornings.
  2. Sunday lunch with lots of veggies and grilled cheese. Jay enjoys the meal a lot.
  3. Jay has added new exercises to her routine. Today she starts with high jumps over the rope my Mom and I hold for her.

Saturday, July 19, 2014

Our day at the sea didn’t start nor end too well: Em got badly burnt by a medusa on the back of her leg, just below her knee, as soon as she got in the water, and I got badly sun-burnt and lost my sunhat which I realized when we got home. But all the in-betweens were very fine:
  1. Jay’s perfect dead man’s float
  2. Em’s medusa burns in the shape of a heart
  3. swimming, splashing and laughing hard with the girls.

Friday, July 18, 2014

  1. The appointment goes well and I am glad so far.
  2. A get together with a friend who’s been laid off recently. I feel like it is a good exchange of information, ideas and support.
  3. Em and I watch a TV series from the second season that we both like.