Sunday, June 5, 2016

  1. The crust on the grill-cheese slices.
  2. We wanted to take our bikes to go cycling, but it starts raining. We look for the old tae-bo tape and do our exercise indoors instead. Jay laughs a lot and we have a  great time.
  3. I am happy I have brought a book along so I don’t sit idly in the car while waiting for Jay.

Thursday, June 2, 2016

  1. At lunchtime I dash to the library then stop at the café nearby to have a decaf with a great view of the green on the other side of the river.
  2. I ponder what to with this new information that I got a hold of. And then I do nothing and it feels good. They have done enough bad to me and I don’t have to respond to win.
  3. Things I thought I had completed keep popping up. I force myself to check every single line all over again and send it out before midnight.

Wednesday, June 1, 2016

  1. A good start of the day. As I wake Em I tell her she shouldn’t freak out but someone has cleaned her room overnight (of course, it was her doing before sleep), and that makes her smile even before she opens her eyes.
  2. A call from a friend from the office just to ask me how I have been doing. I think that is most thoughtful and it brings tears to my eyes.
  3. I usually only read one chapter to Jay at bedtime. But the story is so intriguing I go on and read one more.

Monday, May 30, 2016

  1. Crazy scenarios in my head. Focusing on the breathing brings me back.
  2. I speak to Jay over the phone. She wants to know if I am home when she gets back from her hip hop class.
  3. Jay’s piano without notes spread all over it is a pretty sight.

Sunday, May 29, 2016

  1. Jay returns home from her cycling tour with a big smile on her face.
  2. Having home-made pizza with my girls in our dining room.
  3. Finally I press “send” and have it off my chest. I know it is just for a little while, maybe just overnight, but still.

Wednesday, May 25, 2016

  1. I remember to call a friend for her birthday. Her voice is always cheerful.
  2. There are many children on stage, all recipients of awards for their music performance within this school year, and Jay is among them. What a pretty sight.
  3. We warm up the vegetable soup and have supper on the table within minutes.

Tuesday, May 24, 2016

  1. My colleague's little daughter waves me good morning on her way to kindergarten.
  2. Blow-drying Jay’s silky hair.
  3. An interesting insight into the lives of women that the lady met during her travel to Iran a few years ago.

Sunday, May 22, 2016

  1. The church reminds me of a very dear friend, who is still very much alive in my heart. His ideas, his artistic skills and work can be traced all over the place. Thank you, thank you.
  2. Jay’s face is all red from biking uphill, but she doesn’t complain too much. She is actually very happy with herself and does some more exercising in the yard.
  3. Digging in my vegetable garden. An evening breeze from the forest.

Saturday, May 21, 2016

  1. I plant new flowers on his grave. It’s a beautiful morning and the view of the hill he loved so much, rising from behind the trees, is magnificent. I feel like that is where he dwells, still. He is also one of the guardians of my girls, I know he is.
  2. We get a seat in the shade and have a good view of the choir of more than 150 people. I am impressed by the singers’ endurance to sing in full afternoon sun, most of them not even wearing sunglasses, like Em.
  3. While Jay watches her favorite TV show with her dad and Em’s relaxing, I get to watch a movie of my own choice while exercising. It is a good one.

Friday, May 20, 2016

  1. I could still remember my dream of A in the morning.
  2. I run into an old classmate who also hasn’t attended the class of ’83 get-together a week ago.
  3. The performance is lovely. Em is the last one to sing. The highlight of my day.

Thursday, May 19, 2016

  1. Em is overexcited showing me photos taken at the TV studios yesteday. I am so happy for her.
  2. I help Jay go through the learning material once more, and then she seems more relaxed.
  3. While exercising I finish watching the movie I started a few days ago. I would like to spend a week at an old mansion surrounded by vineyards in Provence, that I know.  

Wednesday, May 18, 2016

  1. It is a nice gesture of theirs, to bring a small gift, the soap with sea salt, to the meeting.
  2. I record my reading out loud and listen to it while driving. I’m trying my best to keep afloat.
  3. Every time I wind the old clock I remember the kitchen in my grandparents’ house, and my grandfather, his strong hard working hands, his small figure, his energetic walk and sense of humor. I am so lucky.

Tuesday, May 17, 2016

  1. I only had time to say if she was going to pick me up, and then her mobile phone went dead. A while later the cleaning lady shows up at the office and tells me they have come for me.
  2. Jay doesn’t want to be alone in front of the house, playing with flowers and water, so I agree to do some shoes’ cleaning outside to be near her. There are raindrops and a cold breeze, yet enjoyable.
  3. Reading another chapter at bedtime with Jay.

Monday, May 16, 2016

  1. The moment I step out of the car it starts raining. I am so lucky the building is a few steps away.
  2. I have time to borrow some dvds from the library while Em is at her singing class.
  3. Reading at bedtime in Jay’s bed.

Sunday, May 15, 2016

  1. By the time Jay wakes up I have already returned from my grocery shopping.
  2. My cousin comes visit with her little girl Naja. She undresses Jay’s dolls then dresses them up again, and it is so wonderful to watch her in action.
  3. It stops raining in the late afternoon and we go for a walk uphill to the church and back. The view is not clear, yet beautiful as always.

Saturday, May 14, 2016

  1. I couldn’t sleep. I start my exercise at 6 in the morning.
  2. While waiting for Em and her chorus rehearsal to end, I have time for a walk in the rain, a coffee with a friend and a chat with a former coworker I run into at the open market.
  3. After my assumptions prove right I know I need to leave the house for a couple of hours. I go to the movies. Good decision.

Friday, May 13, 2016

  1. Jay is the first one to wish me happy birthday in the morning.
  2. I use up the gift card from my friend for a fancy brand of eye shadows for Em.
  3. When we get home, they prepare many wonderful surprises for me. There’s colorful banner, a cake, singing and piano playing, kisses, hugs, and confetti.

Thursday, May 12, 2016

  1. The owner was not kind and eventually said he wasn’t even sure he was going to sell the place. But after having seen a house in a very bad condition a week ago I longed to see a beautiful one – like this.
  2. I listen to their chirping in the bathroom. My girls.
  3. Before sleep I play some of my favorite tunes.

Wednesday, May 11, 2016

  1. I googled up a blog with their family tree and photos.
  2. I am glad to not feel discouraged after the meeting. I stop at a fancy café to bring my adrenaline down.
  3. I get through my exercise by watching Walter Mitty again, and can’t help laughing. It is a good end of the day.

Tuesday, May 10, 2016

  1. We agreed on the price. We shook hands. Another milestone in my journey.
  2. Shakira’s Try everything lifts me up.
  3. I blow dry Jay’s hair. And after Jay’s in bed I check on Em and she is working on her math with a friend on the other side of the line. It is just a normal day. Amid all this craziness I need the sense of routine, the sense of stability, as momentary as it may be.