Wednesday, November 30, 2011

November’s gone

  1. Our chat saves me from dwelling on disappointment.
  2. Their old house is like an enchanted castle but then the lights reveal its colorful and cozy interior.
  3. I sneak under her bedcovers while she watches TV. 

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Tuesday’s 3

  1. I talk and talk and she listens and the sun keeps shining on us despite everything.

  2. There was no need to argument. To ask for help. I just did it. Nobody seemed to care. I care.

  3. I feel brain-washed.  In a good way.

Monday, November 28, 2011

Monday’s skies

  1. An amazing mackerel sky at dawn.  I can’t ever remember seeing a single cloud spread across the sky like that, in the form of a volcano eruption in grey and pink.

  2. I changed clothes and walked right out of the house, into the sun. It was a perfect walk to the library. And back, under the starry sky.

  3. There is something healing coming my way every time I experience my teenage daughter’s expressions of deepest sentiments, be it happiness, anger, sadness, pain. Or fear, like tonight. It’s in the knowing she can do it and I never could.

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Wednesday anticipation

  1. I feel assured about not experiencing unplesantries without prior notice. Which is good.

  2. I help Jay dress up for the dancing class. I feel her heart pound in anticipation.

  3. Em’s looking forward to going to the book fair.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Finally, Tuesday

  1. I feel my unease. Can't focus. Can't work. Then my coworker says something about scanning some competitor's prices and I can't be more grateful for the lucky chance to leave the office for a couple of hours.
  2. It's been ages since I sat down next to her to draw. To read, I will do that any time. But to draw, no. It seems too simple, won't shut the mind. But then I do just that. Draw ornaments, patterns, doodle. And I dive into peacefulness, even if just for an hour. We both do.
  3. I watch her parade in her new black boots. And I can see she is growing. Too fast.